I can't tell you how many times I have come on and off the dieting wagon. Over the years I have never stuck to anything longer than a week - I wish I was kidding, but that's not even an exaggeration. I am weak willed despite being the most stubborn person I know.
I am finding it easier and easier to eat well and eat clean. Whereas before I used to crave and beg for cheese, cream, milk, chocolate, butter, and all things carbs and starch, now I have no desire or need for them. I still crave salt and I've always been a salt person, but I no longer have an overwhelming craving for anything calorie laden. I find myself seeking fresh salads and snacks. I adjusted my portions with ease and just, well... I got smart. I don't really know why or how, I'm just doing it and I can't stop. Is it true that one day you just wake up and reprogram your brain? And that's it, there's no going back? I've heard all kinds of success stories of this nature. People saying "you know what, one day I just decided enough is enough"... did I do that? Is that what's happening to me?
My jeans are looser and I can tighten my belt a couple notches tighter and that is fantastic, but you know what the very best part is? I feel phenomenal. I feel energized, awake, bubbly, in good spirits. I feel refreshed and renewed and motivated. I walked into a Starbucks this morning and I ordered a grande iced americano with no room. If you know me, then you know this is huge. Massive. Unbelievable. The same Emma who used to basically live at Starbucks and have a latte on tap is no longer interested in the heavy latte. I know it will only slow me down.
I genuinely don't know what has happened to make me flip my switch. Maybe I finally did get sick of myself. Maybe my brain finally clicked into gear and said "let's do this!". My only wish is that this would have happened sooner!
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